Tag: death

0 Comment on Ruminations at a Graveside: Autistic Curiosity on Death and Dying
Posted in autism me my writing

Ruminations at a Graveside: Autistic Curiosity on Death and Dying

Because we live in a culture that doesn’t talk about death, I am innately curious. It’s the ultimate unspoken thing -final, unchangeable, ridiculous – that my brain wants to unpack and understand.

0 Comment on The Challenge Ahead…
Posted in autism me

The Challenge Ahead…

The next week (or so) has been bequeathed from hell to challenge me. 

1 Comment on Thinking Unthinkable Thoughts: The Fear Of Losing My Mum
Posted in autism me

Thinking Unthinkable Thoughts: The Fear Of Losing My Mum

My mum is and always has been my safe place to fall. And as I get older, I’m becoming more and more aware that some day I won’t have her there. 

0 Comment on ‘But what if they’re dead?’ – catastrophisation and the anxiety of loss
Posted in autism me

‘But what if they’re dead?’ – catastrophisation and the anxiety of loss

Sometimes, when I wake up at night and my dogs are lying around me, I have to reach out and check they are still breathing.

0 Comment on “I won’t be ignored!” – Thank You, Chester Bennington
Posted in autism me

“I won’t be ignored!” – Thank You, Chester Bennington

I wish I could tell him how he took an angry, lonely, confused little queer autistic girl, and gave her the tools she needed to survive.

0 Comment on In the event of my death (freeform)
Posted in my writing

In the event of my death (freeform)

If I die, take me home to my bed and hold my hand; cuddle me like you’ve always done, as if bringing me down from a meltdown.