He goes through so much and is still the happiest creature. It's like we were meant to find each other. We both struggle. And we know how to look after each other.
But why, oh why, was I locked in a toilet doing my 'calming down' checklist in the middle of the afternoon? Two words: forced socialisation.
I'm 26 now, and I still smack myself in the legs when the world gets too much. Do you really want to take that risk?
Seeing Norbert Neurotypical - with his banking job and his wife and his baby and his mortgage and his vegetable couscous lunch - just makes me feel like a fraud playing at being an adult .
I will not stand by and watch the bastardisation of a word that is part of my very definition.
I have a strange and wonderful and terrible and contentious relationship with this time of year.
His phone call to the charity was shared as a courageous exposé. I had to stop watching after three minutes because I was on the edge of a memory-scarred panic attack.
The horrible cough-and-cold mixture is the ultimate magnification of all the things that push those sensory overload buttons in my brain.
My journey is my journey alone- but I hope that there are some elements of what I have learned that can help.