I've never talked about this particular stim before, or considered it as a 'stim' in the same way I class my other stims. It's one of those 'ew gross' actions that you try to keep hidden from the rest of the world.
Was I destined to be super-glued to square one for the rest of my life? Am I stuck in a destiny I desperately do not want? What more can I do?
Ah, the joys of your entire future spinning on the head of a single one hour snapshot of your life.
Being laughed at for falling for a prank is different. It tells me that, no matter how hard I have tried to calcify myself and arm myself and be vigilant, I have failed. It tells me that I am ridiculous, and gullible. It tells me that no matter how hard I have worked to get it right, I am still getting it wrong.